Febuary 2013

    
Hello all, time for another chat. Feel free to make a comment or two, just so I know your out there, the echo is so loud in this room.


Since we last wrote, the treatments are all done, thank God. I really didn't think I was going to make the last week. Now the recovery. It takes a lot longer than I thought it would. Following some blog sites I see that the average is 6 months to a year before things START to get back to normal, I'm just coming up on three months and wish it was here already. It will be a new normal that's for sure. I guess the biggest thing in my head is 'did they get it?', ' Is it going to come back?' 'When can I enjoy a burger again?'

My family has been so good since all of this has started, their amazing. Janet has put up with the whining and complaining so well. Right now, I'm not the guy I was 6 months ago, I find it difficult to do some of the tasks I did everyday. Not so much a physical thing, though that does have some bearing, mostly a mental barrier that has been put up, by me. Some days it hard to convince yourself that it's all going to be OK, and soon everything will be good. I worry about making long term plans for anything. I know that at any time I could be taken out by a bus, this is different, this is the body failing and you can see it coming.

You see all these cancer survivors cheering and going on with their stories and you have to wonder, where the hell they got the power to do that. I wish I had it, I don't. I've not given up, hell NO, but how these people can be cheery everyday is beyond me, at this point anyway.

I gotten away with a few things in life. An aneurysm a few years ago, walked away from that like it was hangnail. Cancer is not so cut and dry. You never know if it's really gone, that's the kicker, it sticks in your mind and it's hard to turn it off, well for me anyway.

Enough about that.

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Still working on doing a photography project with OASIS group at the Westside Community clinic, I hope to have that started by March 15ish, I still need about 5 cameras to make it work, so step up if you can. I believe it will be a really great project and I've secured on of the best photographers / videographers in town to lend a had as well. We'll post links when there available.

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Just a note: As I am going through all this shit I've notice one thing stands out. Your friends. Some make an effort, some, not so much. It seams like some are afraid to be around a sick person, weather there better or not.  What I have is not contagious, if fact, most people get a form of cancer 6 to 10 times in their life, the body can and will fight all of them, some are stronger and the body needs some help. What you can do is call that friend, and don't worry if they don't call you back, call again. I had a good friend call, and I didn't call him back for a few days, then I felt bad because it took so long, so I never called him. Just keep calling ( not every hour, but you get my point) they may not be up to talking right away, but they will.



Everyone have a great day and may all your wishes come true.

Thanks Chickadee

Bruce